2022.01.19 07:03 Spinechill_ Discussion: keeled scales in corn snakes?
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2022.01.19 07:03 jumjums 30 Minute Upper Body & Kickboxing HIIT Workout | ACTIVATE - Day 13
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2022.01.19 07:03 No_Idea_1997 I don’t know to handle this
My ex and I broke up a month a half ago. And during this time, I’ve been trying to be a better person and move on. But I just can’t. We had been dating for 2 years. In fact, we broke up days before our 2 year anniversary. We began dating back in December 2019 after meeting on Bumble. She was very forward with her affection right off the bat and a few times I handled it very poorly. Saying she being a bit clingy. I hadn’t been in a real relationship before and seeing someone say they liked me and calling me cute and handsome sort of made me freak out a bit. But I quickly got use to it. We had a great time dating, going places and even went on an amazing trip to Chicago. Even during the pandemic, we made things work. And after 6 months of dating, she moved in with me. The issue was, I wasn’t ready for it. I had a two bedroom apartment with a roommate and my roommate was going to move out after the lease was up. I couldn’t afford to live there alone so I asked if she wanted to move in. She’d get her own room so it wouldn’t feel like we were taking things too far too quickly but that’s where I was wrong. She wanted something more serious and I was still taking my time getting adjusted. Eventually I lost my job due to Covid and things went down hill.
I spent days in my room, unsure how to deal with my depression. Id tell her I wanted to be alone and would make excuses as to why I didn’t want to go anywhere. I was in a bad place. I had never been in such a dark headspace. And in return I was emotionally neglecting her. We still did things together. This wasn’t constant. But my depression would often effect our day to day lives. I was on antidepressants but couldn’t find one that worked for me. Changing prescriptions over and over again. She’d recommend therapy but I felt embarrassed about doing that. Another dumb choice.
November 2020 we got a puppy together. She is our pride and joy. But she was also another aspect I neglected. Id often sleep in really late and wake up to find she had peed in her pin. Eventually our apartment smelt like dog pee. And these things only led me to feel more isolated and lack any confidence or motivation. I was trying to find work but struggled to hold down a job due to my mental health. My mental health held me down a lot and I had no idea how to deal with it. But I used her as my support but gave her little support and affection in return.
She went and visited a friend up in Chicago on New Year’s Eve 2020. I didn’t know at the time but she was there to look at apartments because she planned on breaking up with me and moving there. And on that same night I was alone and attempted to take my own life. The only thing that stopped me was thinking of her. In March 2021 she eventually told me she wanted to break up and that she was moving to Chicago. This hurt me more than anything before. But we were able to discuss it over and we were back together three days later. And I had to decided to move with her to Chicago. I also promised to make the necessary changes to be happy and to treat her right. And after that we were happy.
A month later we were in Chicago. I had applied for college online and found a good job and worked remotely. I did have some issues arise though. I have extreme anxiety when it comes to cities and we were living right in the middle of one on the West Loop. This meant I wasn’t leaving the apartment besides when we went places together and I was too afraid to drive. We also had a studio apartment that we shared. Most of it was decorated in her stuff and a bit of mine but she’d often complain that I took up too much space even though I had four shelves and a window sill with my stuff on it and that’s it. It was very cramped though. We also had a dog and a cat. The cat was fine except she’d often pee on our clothes and bed. Leading us to have to give her to my exes parents. I felt bad about our dog. She had very little room to play and we had to take her all the way down to the sidewalk for her to go potty. Starting back in October we noticed we’d fight more. Little arguments and just being grumpy. I began to leave the apartment less and less and would close myself off again. I was falling back into those same issues I had before. Late November I saw what was going on and took initiative. I was planning dates for us and a huge date for our upcoming two year anniversary. I was also putting money aside for a ring to propose in February. Then in early December she told me she wanted to breakup. He discussed it and agreed we’d take a break. Id live with my parents for a few weeks and give each other space. Then the next day she said she wanted to break up for longer. And then down the line we’d reconsider what we want. I agreed and a few days later was back living with my parents three hours away.
Those night were tough. It made it even worse to learn was texting old flames just two days after I was gone. And going on dates a week later. Then on Christmas Day she told me she didn’t want to get back together ever. She said she never healed the first part of our relationship and doesn’t know if she even loved me when we got back together. And that hurt me a lot. A couple days later she heard some pretty mean things my sister had said about her. And assumed I was the one who was telling my sister these things. Which wasn’t true. Even after everything I’d defend my ex to anyone that tries to talk bad about her. We both had issues but she was the sweetest and most caring person I know. But after hearing these things from my sister, she accused me of spreading lies and broke off all contact. I was devastated. But I respected her wishes and didn’t try to contact her. Eventually she reached back out to me and we were able to get things cleared up. And a day later I went to visit her and spent the night. We had a really good time but it was just mutual. It was probably a bad idea though. And this past weekend I visited again for a few days. We had a really good and romantic time. But I am fully aware we aren’t guaranteed to get back together. But I know we are complicating things. After I left she told me she is starting to have feelings again. But then today she said she feels she can never trust me again. Now I just don’t know what to do. I hate this flip flopping we are doing. She wants me to continue to visit and text her and be intimate and plan cute dates but she doesn’t want to get back together and still wants to see other people as well. Now I feel stuck. I should probably step away and break contact for a time. But I’m afraid that’ll kill any chance we have of working things out. And I can’t fathom going a day without speaking to her.
Since this break up I’ve been trying to better myself. I’ve been dieting, going to the gym, bettering my career and finally been attending therapy sessions. And it’s helped wonders. But she doesn’t seem to be making an effort to fix her issues. I know I’m the more flawed one so I’m putting in the work to be better. Not for her but for me. I want to prevent this from ever happening again. But it makes me feel like she doesn’t acknowledge her flaws as being an issue. Just mine. She says she can’t trust me because edge doesn’t know if I’ll fall back on my toxic tendencies again. Which I understand. She went through a lot emotionally. But I also feel like a partner should be there to help through these issues. I was suffering from mental health issues. I didn’t do these things because they were fun and I’d rather die than be the person I was a year ago. I don’t know. I feel so lost and I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried everything and suggested everything I could to help keep us together but she doesn’t seem to want that. Then she tells me she does have feeling after all and wants to be essentially be her boyfriend but not actually date. And the issue is I want to do these things for her. But I know it’ll probably end in her not wanting me back and me putting in all this effort for nothing. If anyone actually reads this, advice would be nice. This was a mostly for me to get it all off my chest though.
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2022.01.19 07:03 BlueEighthNote subunit seasonal songs distributions
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2022.01.19 07:03 happymasquerade I’m tired of never being appreciated as a closing SSV.
Just what the title says. I transferred to a new store almost a year ago that is a higher volume drive-thru location. I struggled for a few months trying to adjust to the way this store closes. I have 2-3 employees every night, and we are expected to break down each bar and clean everything, make all of the backups, clean all the floors, and restock everything on top of handling the usual business. Of course I have to do SSV tasks too, like the evening pull/inventory counts/breaks. Altogether it feels like a lot for the 6.5 hours I am scheduled, but I feel like I devised a pretty good routine and most nights I can leave the store in a good spot. Except I almost never get a positive word from the opening SSV’s. Nobody ever thanks us for the amount of work we do. Sometimes we are downright slammed until 7pm and still expected to leave everything perfect for the next day.
I know some people will tell me to suck it up but all I really want is the occasional gratitude from the openers for the effort we put in. A lot of the times when I come in, all I get is a note about how one small thing was out of place. I have basically given up and tried to accept the idea that openers have no concept of what closing is like and they bitch about the small stuff because they’re tired. Recently it’s been especially hard because some closers at my store got better career opportunities and moved on leaving us critically short staffed.
The worst part is the secondary closing SSV gets positive notes from the openers almost every time despite our closes looking the same. I suspect this has to do with store politics because there is nothing that the other SSV does differently from me. She works mids as welL and has been at this store much longer than me.
I just really needed to vent. Thanks.
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2022.01.19 07:03 bblaineC Who was a real twist villain in your life and what’s the story?
2022.01.19 07:03 SakeTube I hear everyone think the new craft materials will be for giants and fairies. What we need is new Magic essence because all races but Demons/Goddesses has them. So we can still get relics for fairies and giants btw
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2022.01.19 07:03 dragonakia The lazy eggles has a great community. There's is an active NFTs 🎁Giveaway on discord. Link at the comments.
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2022.01.19 07:03 _CuteDevil_ Cursed Fapping
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2022.01.19 07:03 Nishi7044 Leagues 3
First time ever trying leagues tomorrow, should I play leagues on my alt account so I can continue to progress my main? Or are the rewards brought to the main game from leagues locked on the account that participates in leagues?
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2022.01.19 07:03 Artsutarazx CRYING POLYFOX GIVEAWAY🎁REALLY EASY TO ENTER❗CHECK MY COMMENT FOR MORE INFO👇
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2022.01.19 07:03 Frangifer Going back a bit ... but this one got left behind.
2022.01.19 07:03 No_virgin_boi Which is a better unit overall ?
2022.01.19 07:03 Samarth9 Just a meme
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2022.01.19 07:03 solblood 恥ずかしながら「ビデオゲームとNFT」の現状がわからないので18年続くMMO『EVE Online』運営にメールで「ゲームはどう変わるの？」と率直な疑問をぶつけてみた
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2022.01.19 07:03 Man_of_culture_112 Ally Rossel
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2022.01.19 07:03 Artsutarazx CRYING POLYFOX GIVEAWAY🎁REALLY EASY TO ENTER❗CHECK MY COMMENT FOR MORE INFO👇
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2022.01.19 07:03 Zealousideal_Bike917 Help
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2022.01.19 07:03 Old-While-1229 If you could’ve chosen a different villain for the finale, who/ what would you have chosen?
I personally would’ve chosen another lady in white (because we hear in the SPN pilot that the lady in white is a type of ghost that is created in the means the lady in white we see was created, not just one specific ghost) or Chuck but as a human. I personally think it’d have been cool to see Chuck as some sort of crazy cult leader 5 years after his defeat with a whole bunch of crazy people believing that he is God reincarnated or something. I dunno. I personally would’ve liked to see what happened to Chuck after the second to last episode.
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2022.01.19 07:03 LiteralHatCS Today's budget prep
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2022.01.19 07:03 Adventurous_Laugh_47 How much Greek do I need for a Ph. D. Byzantine History.
Hey Reddit I’ve never needed you guys more,
I’m wondering how much Greek I would need for a Ph.D. in Byzantine Studies? I’m asking because I’ve heard wildly different things. I’ve done 9 months of latin through private tutoring (progressing at medium speed). I have zero knowledge of Greek right now and have a hard time imagining learning it fluently enough, so I have half a mind for shifting to a PhD on the early medieval west. Would 1 year of University instruction combined with private tutoring and 2x summer schools in Byzantine Greek (Trinity College Dublin has one) be enough? Or would I have to do a whole masters degree in Late Antique and Byzantine studies (Oxford or Edinburgh). I’m currently finishing an MA in History, so I’m reluctant to do a second masters degree. I already know some german as well.
Hope for some help
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2022.01.19 07:03 valent0ne Scoreboard coming in Febuary!
2022.01.19 07:03 Possible-Telephone27 If you own God of War on PS4 does it transfer over to PC?
I own a disk copy of GoW on the PS4 and was wondering is it possible to transfer your copy of GoW onto to steam without having to buy a PC copy of GoW?
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2022.01.19 07:03 Arnadus Digital RMB Wallet Reaches 20% Adoption in China Ahead of Winter Olympic Trial
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2022.01.19 07:02 malli-uzgun Cursed nephews
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